I'm still here

I'm borrowing a work vehicle until mine is better. Unfortunately it is a ute that an apprentice drives during the day. The moron took the keys home with him tonight. So I'm still stuck at work waiting for him to bring them back. Not happy Jan - I'm gonna miss Neighbours now :) What? yeah of course I watch Neighbours - I'm a pom for Chrissake!

Another bad weekend diet wise. Went to my sisters for a party and had the night off - by eating enough food for a week! Potatoes, bread, creamy dip, curry puffs, choc mud cake - in fact pretty much everything on the NO list. Next day was no better. T/l bought me some sensational "pain au chocolate" for brekkie, we had fish and chips for lunch, and I had 2 ham and cheese criossants for tea. Was nice though.

Will have another crack at being good this week. So far so good. Had my water, went to the gym and I didn't see the cheese in my salad - honest! :)

Nothing But Trouble

I'm having trouble sticking to the diet. Not sure why. Feel hungry/nauseous - not sure which. Hmmm

Got waxed yesterday. Got the full brazilian. Don't know whether it's because I have lost weight or whether I am just getting used to it but it didn't hurt as much this time. Nice and smooth now :) Girl was telling me that she's had heaps of calls from guys wanting brazilians. Hetro ones too. I know I know that is a very stereotypical thing to say, it's just most men I know whinge when they have their toe-nails cut - and the thought of having hair ripped out from their balls is enough to make them go pallid. My T/l would have to be under a general anaesthetic before he could do it!

Involved in a car accident last night. Feeling a bit sore and sorry for myself this morning. neck aches, back aches, head aches. Nothing I could do except close my eyes and wait for the guy to hit the back of my car. I instantly went into "Super Insurance chick to the Rescue" mode and was busy writing everyones details down and making sure everyone was OK.

My sick car at the repairers as we speak. She's probably glad of the break, and this might be her chance to get that wash she has been wanting for so long :)

Drum Roll Please

Ta-da! Lost 0.9kg from last week, putting me 1/2 kilo below my lowest so far. I feel really good I must admit. Think my metabolism has kicked up a notch as well. Those Atkins Brekkie bars taste like cardboard, but they certainly get "things" moving if ya know what I mean. Let's see if I can survive another weekend with t/l without caving in (too much)

See how I got a blue bunny on my ticker.... and if u look really really really closely you can see him smiling :)

Just The Boost I Needed

Hit the work gym again at lunchtime, and the rarely resident PT was in. He's the guy who showed me the ropes when I first joined. He said I looked great and seemed genuinely impressed - I even saw the double take! Of course after that I tried even harder on the treadmill, and was slightly concerned that my head might not fit back through the gym entrance. It feels like a bigger deal when the compliment is from a "health professional" - and the fact that he is easy on the eye himself was a bonus too.

Oh, I sneaked a peek at the scales this morning - but you'll have to wait for tomorrow for the "official" verdict. (That's if I remember to weigh myself)

Few More Hours Please....

I'm in stress mode. Got lots and lots of things I want to get done, and I am trying to fit everything in by yesterday. I got lists everywhere, I'm skint, I'm tired. Apart from that I'm wonderful! :)

Hanging on to the program and apart from the half square of chocolate I found myself scoffing last night been very good. I have been on the treadmill 3 times this week. Even managed to run for 3 minutes straight. Watch out Kathy Freeman - I'm right behind ya!

Getting tough tho..... It's the stress that makes me wanna eat...... Anyone got a few spare hours they can lend me?

Going Down

I'm bouncing around all over the place at the moment. Gained 3 kgs on my 10 day binge, and lost 2.8kg as of Saturday morning. So I'm back to where I started.

Have to try and keep the decline for a bit longer. Some b##tard brought Krispy Kremes in for morning tea but I am to resist... reseeest!!!!

I did have pasta Saturday night, but checked the scales this morning and no real harm done, so looking forward to seeing a loss on Friday. PLEASE!

Seems that life at the moment is throwing in any obstacle it can think of.... but gotta stay focussed. Kinda feels like an episode of smallville (no I don't watch it - the trailers are enough to put me off!) where do you get those lycra suits from?

Catch My Disease

Everyone's doing it! It's like a craze that's sweeping the nation. Mum is doing it - and seems to be going very well. My sisters mother in law is doing it, although I don't really know why, cause she doesn't really need to. One of mom's work mates is considering it, and ones of my mates is doing it as well (although she's got no chance cause she's not committed)

Oh, and in case u haven't already guessed - I'm talking about TF. Good luck to them all I say. I'm especially proud of my mum. She has never been a water drinker - hates the stuff. She is however making sure she has her 2 litres, and is finding it easier every day. Good on ya! If ever I needed inspiration - you're it!

On a separate note, here's a blog I came across yesterday. Thought the pirate dictionary pretty good fun. Find it interesting that the term bitch is becoming more of a compliment rather than an insult, meaning a strong woman, one who will not suffer fools gladly. Call me a bitch anytime!
http://thebookbitches.blogspot.com

More Money Than Sense

That is my answer to the question - what kind of people vote on Big Brother. BB06 this year is boring. Yawning boring. So much so I put the late show on when I have insomnia.

They finally put someone interesting in - Perry. Loud, opinionated, loud, outrageous, slightly dizzy, loud, confident, abrupt - did I mention loud? She was pushing all the right buttons, getting reactions from the sloths, made something worth watching. So what happens? First week she is up for eviction the "public" vote her off! Hence it's boring again. I mean jeez guys - think before you sms. Sure she was annoying, loud, mental - but at least she was doing something. You don't have to live with her - so keep her in to stir the pot! Why not vote the plastic fantastic Crystal instead - the only thing worth watching out for with her is how high she can get her hair on a Sunday night.

Vote with your head, not your heart - keep the annoying people in for some interest - arguments, debates, fights - that's what we want to see - not lounging sun catchers who whinge about their white bits.

Focus

Had a very low few days. Bad news on Saturday night and feels like everything is falling down around my ears. Been avoiding this area as wanted to keep it positive and didn't have anything even remotely amusing or interesting to say. Still haven't.

My mantra for the week... FOCUS. Stay positive. Keep looking forward. Keep your eyes on the goal.

Started the TF programme again. Put on a few kilos but going to treat this as a new start. Food is nourishment again instead of comfort. Went on treadmill yesterday and worked pretty hard. So far planning on doing same today.

Lots of decisions to make - every one feels like a bad one. How do you sort through which is the best?

FOCUS.

HXB RIP

I cremated a Hot Cross Bun last night. I know it's not Easter but that is when I started this diet (crusade?) and as HXBs are my absolute favourite I hid them in my freezer for very special occasions.

Well I was hungry last night so that was my special occasion. Stuck one under the grill and went on the computer....... and forgot about it. Think it was about an hour later before I realised. Of course it was black and unedible (lovely charcoal for the BBQ tho) Believe me that's not the first time I have done that.

Karma? maybe. Stupidity? Definitely!

Oh, and I've just had my first Caffeine fix in 3 months. Will be bouncing off the walls any minute now.

Feel like a Pubic Hair on a Toilet Seat

I'm pissed off. I hate being "overweight" (at least I'm not classed as obese anymore) I hate having a cold. I feel like I have a space suit on (just don't fart!) I'm the girl in the bubble. My ears feel blocked, I feel like I am about to sneeze all the time. (people think I'm pulling faces at them - it's just my nose itching). I keep wrinkling it like on Bewitched. (my spells aren't working tho - doh!). I'm grumpy, I'm emotional. Can't even blame it on the time of the month. What other excuse can I use.... SAD syndrome is always effective this time of year :)

Thanks to Life for his comment. The site he mentions is cool too. Looking forward to my motivational thoughts for the day - definitely need a buck up.

Here's one I have been meaning to post up for a while. Definitely brought a smile to my face. A little harmless voyeurism. I'm not sure whether Aussies know who Paul Daniels is - but he's a "famous", now infamous, magician. Very "uncool". Aussies think Daryl Somers with a "find the ball under the cup" game and you get the picture. Those in the States, think David Copperfield starring on a cheesy game show and you might come close. Lemme know what you think. http://www.pdet.blogspot.com/
- check out feb 18 especially - I'm guessing he's in his 60s now???

Lost - 1 Motivation. If found please return.

I caved. Made it to 5:30pm but I caved. Bought bake at home dinner rolls and fruit steamed puddings. Had 4 of the rolls with REAL butter and Deli cheese, then later had a steamed pudding with a huge dollop of my childhood favourite - tinned cream. Hmmmmmmm.

I have lost my mojo, my motivation, my willpower. I am bored of the shakes. I am bored of my job, I am bored of my life. Decided I will have a week off to pick up the pieces and hopefully my strength will have returned to be able to pick up the baton again and keep on running.

Good news. I made 30 pairs of earrings last night and managed to fulfill my order on time. phew! I need an extra 5 hours every day to catch up on all the things I plan to do. I spend all day at my "real" job wishing I was home so I could get on with my own business, then when I get home I am so stuffed I cannot be bothered looking at a computer for another few hours (surely 8 hours a day is enough!)

ah well. Did some random blogging before to cheer myself up (or kill time - whichever you prefer) this one caught my eye http://lifesinger.blogspot.com/ Enjoy.

Low Down on My Low

Had a day & 1/2 off the diet on the weekend. Didn't even enjoy it yesterday. Saturday was ok - had some leftover noodles lunchtime (greasy) and took the boys for fish and chips teatime. Overate. Was yummy though.

Yesterday was a different story, and I feel ashamed and disgusted with myself. I was basically grumpy. Mostly because I was all blocked up with a head cold, but also because t/l didn't stay over like he promised. C. was driving me insane. His incessant talking, whilst normally annoying but bearable, was grating - like a drill boring into my head. Porridge for brekkie. That was yum. Then ate the leftover pineapple fritters - and I went downhill from there. BBQ chips, mini mars bars - I was rummaging in the pantry like a hobo rifling through garbage bags.

C wanted maccas for lunch. I decided on a decaf coffee that made my nauseous, and a big mac and fries. Can't believe I used to eat them. Fries were like eating soggy warm cardboard, and the burger - well, let's just say I won't be eating there again. Obviously my head cold was causing me to make bad eating decisions. Codral don't have a cure for that one do they?

Suppose the good news is my "comfort" eating isn't so comforting any more. I'm still grumpy, still all blocked up - but now with crappy junk food as well as the head cold. Back to the drawing board.

Thank you Thank you Thank you!

Phew! Lost half a kilo.

I'm wearing pants today that are too big for me (again) when I started this I couldn't get them to fasten, and I had the best camel toe you've ever seen :) Wish I'd tried them on a bit sooner, I love these pants - would have been nice to have worn them when they actually fitted nicely.

Oh, and Happy 70th Birthday Mum. She'd kill me if she knew it was on the net for the whole world to see. Tee hee.

Wish I Hadn't Done that....

I'm a silly silly girl. Couldn't help myself and got on the scales this morning. Haven't lost anything. Damn damn damn. Now I am stressing about what I have done wrong this week, what I have to do to improve next week etc etc etc. aaaargh! It's my own fault. I got carried away with myself and these days off - began to think I was invincible.

It's my mums 70th birthday tomorrow and I was going to treat us all to Chinese (she doesn't want a big fuss as my BIL is not well) - I will have to be good now though. grrrr.

Saw something interesting a few days ago while checking out nutritional values for a friend of mine. I went on http://www.food.com.au - great aussie site for seeing what you are REALLY eating. I started checking the weightwatchers items out - just to see how much "better" they were for you. Got a bit of a shock...

Bear in mind that the TF programme is VLCD (very low calorie diet) and well as low carb.

Weight Watchers Steamed Pudding, Sticky Date, frozen
per pudding (80g)
Calories - 360 cals, Kilojoules - 1504 kJ, Total Fats - 6.6 g
Sugars - 26.9 g, Carbohydrates - 73.6 g Cholesterol -
Protein - 5.8 g, Sodium - 528 mg Fibre - 2.7 g

Sara Lee Puddings, Sticky Date, frozen
per serving, 1/6 pudding (79g)
Calories - 266 cals, Kilojoules - 1,112 kJ Total Fats - 10.0 g
Sugars - 29.1 g, Carbohydrates - 40.7 g Cholesterol -
Protein - 2.3 g Sodium - 222 mg Fibre -

This gives me the irrates. Most people (like myself) would automatically assume that being "weightwatchers" it would be better for you that a "normal" pudding. But for (roughly) the same amount you are actually getting 100 extra calories and almost DOUBLE the carbs! Just goes to show that you cannot rely on marketing and branding alone.

My message - ALWAYS CHECK LABELS people. Don't be fooled into thinking it is better for you just because it is marketed towards people trying to lose weight.

Just a Little bit Naughty.....

again!

T/L came over after all and stayed so we had awesome pasta and pizza. Intention on Sunday was to go Krispy Kreme hunting as well, but I flatly refuse to queue for donuts! People have gone insane. Ok, it's the first 1 in Victoria, - BUT THEY ARE DONUTS! They are not made of gold, they are not designed by Armani and they don't feature an exclusive picture of semi-naked celebrities (mores the pity) so why spend an hour queuing up for them? Are they REALLY that nice???

Saturday I went to Salvos hunting for a bargain pair of jeans as my current ones are starting to fall down. I tried on a pair of size 14 Mossimos. I know, I know I guess I was a bit too adventurous. The good thing was that I did manage to get into them AND fasten them up. The bad thing was that I had a spare tyre that Mitchelin would have been proud to sell to 4X4 owners. Back to the drawing board. Denim is soooo unforgiving.

Back to being good as gold today. Slept in so didn't test the scales. Kinda glad :) That half packet of jaffa cakes I ate would show up and I'm not ready to face that.

Might as well face it......

I'm addicted to blog! Take last night for example. I should have been updating my website. I should have been updating my e-bay store, or creating my new online store. What was I really doing? Checked out Blog sites and Memes, trying to decide how to make my blog more interesting, how to attract traffic etc. Shame on all you blogsters out there - you're making addicts of us all!



Weighed in this morning - not bad for 4 days eh?! Might even try and be good this weekend after all. T/l sick, so may not turn up. Didn't do my usual routine either. Forgot it was weigh in day and had a shower first - so it might just have been even less (what? I'm NOT obsessing!!!)

Got wedding cake in the post today from Fi Fi, all the way over in the UK. Had a sliver for brekkie with my shake. Bit dry but suppose you can expect that what with the wedding being a month ago and it being subject to cabin pressure and postal service smelly bags and damp transit vans. Can't really be too much of a food critic all things considered. Got a mild stomach ache now - you don't think it's related do you?

Luscious!

I love that word. Rolls off the tongue just beautifully doesn't it?

I feel great. I have already beaten last weeks visits to the gym, so I can successfully mark that as an improvement.

Will probably be naughty again this weekend, as expecting T/L over. Hence my decision to change my weigh days to Friday. (almost as big a decision as marriage! - hmmmm) That way the 4 days I have been good will not be in vain. Then if I have been bad I have 5 whole days to work my sorry butt off so that it doesn't show in the scales. Jeez I'm so clever I amaze myself! (yeah I know I'm sarcastic)

Oh, and C has taken a liking to all my sugar free lollies, especially my Ricci Lite and Lucious Fabulous Fruits - is there nothing sacred? Grrrrr.

Gonna start posting up links to other blogs I have come across on my way, and stuff I find cool, funny or just down right sad and pathetic.... that way this might be worth reading once in a while.

Weakness? What weakness?

Well well well. Defo back on track. That week off had really shaken my willpower - was very tempted to bend the rules again at the weekend. Lots of emotional stress didn't help, but luckily my fear of non-ketosis is even strong than the carb demons.

I am thinking however of changing my weigh in day from Monday to Friday. That way if for some reason I do succumb to evil then I have a good 5-6 days to work it off again. Hmmmm decision decisions.

My boy is still helping me keep on track too - though I wish he would stop telling all the customers in the supermarket what I can and can't have because of my diet! It seems to make them look at me differently - as a fat person rather than just a stranger at the checkout. Suppose it's like when someone comments on the size of your nose - everyone else has ackowledged it but not focussed on it until it's been made public.

We Shall Overcome!

Continued from yesterday......
Monday morning came. It was a bank holiday so I'd slept in (well as much as a 6 yr old will let me anyway) hit the scales. put on 1.2 kg. Destraught, Mortified. Ashamed. Only had myself to blame.

Back on the straight and narrow. Being a good girl again. Had a yummy tea of pork loin with apple "sauce" made from my fruit allowance and fake sugar. Was yummo!

Tuesday morning I'm back at work after a week off. Decided to check the scales just to make sure I was now going back in the right direction..
Are my scales broken or something? Switched the light on and checked again. Yup that's right. It says I am back down to 74.4. How the F**k can I lose 1.2 kilo in 1 day! Am I complaining? Hell no!

I checked again this morning - just to make absolutely sure... down to 74 even - so I am heading in the right direction.

I'm glad my body has let me off lightly for my week of sin and debauchery, and it's also made me feel a lot less guilty for my cheats. hey I'm human, sometimes I gotta allow myself to indulge. Obviously not to the extreme I did last week (I'd like to be able to hold my head a bit higher thank you!) but at least I don't have to feel contantly deprived. Makes this whole battle a little easier to bear.

Roll on official weight day Monday! Show me whatchya got!