Monday, July 31, 2006

I'm still here

I'm borrowing a work vehicle until mine is better. Unfortunately it is a ute that an apprentice drives during the day. The moron took the keys home with him tonight. So I'm still stuck at work waiting for him to bring them back. Not happy Jan - I'm gonna miss Neighbours now :) What? yeah of course I watch Neighbours - I'm a pom for Chrissake!

Another bad weekend diet wise. Went to my sisters for a party and had the night off - by eating enough food for a week! Potatoes, bread, creamy dip, curry puffs, choc mud cake - in fact pretty much everything on the NO list. Next day was no better. T/l bought me some sensational "pain au chocolate" for brekkie, we had fish and chips for lunch, and I had 2 ham and cheese criossants for tea. Was nice though.

Will have another crack at being good this week. So far so good. Had my water, went to the gym and I didn't see the cheese in my salad - honest! :)

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Nothing But Trouble

I'm having trouble sticking to the diet. Not sure why. Feel hungry/nauseous - not sure which. Hmmm

Got waxed yesterday. Got the full brazilian. Don't know whether it's because I have lost weight or whether I am just getting used to it but it didn't hurt as much this time. Nice and smooth now :) Girl was telling me that she's had heaps of calls from guys wanting brazilians. Hetro ones too. I know I know that is a very stereotypical thing to say, it's just most men I know whinge when they have their toe-nails cut - and the thought of having hair ripped out from their balls is enough to make them go pallid. My T/l would have to be under a general anaesthetic before he could do it!

Involved in a car accident last night. Feeling a bit sore and sorry for myself this morning. neck aches, back aches, head aches. Nothing I could do except close my eyes and wait for the guy to hit the back of my car. I instantly went into "Super Insurance chick to the Rescue" mode and was busy writing everyones details down and making sure everyone was OK.

My sick car at the repairers as we speak. She's probably glad of the break, and this might be her chance to get that wash she has been wanting for so long :)

Friday, July 21, 2006

Drum Roll Please




Ta-da! Lost 0.9kg from last week, putting me 1/2 kilo below my lowest so far. I feel really good I must admit. Think my metabolism has kicked up a notch as well. Those Atkins Brekkie bars taste like cardboard, but they certainly get "things" moving if ya know what I mean. Let's see if I can survive another weekend with t/l without caving in (too much)

See how I got a blue bunny on my ticker.... and if u look really really really closely you can see him smiling :)

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Just The Boost I Needed

Hit the work gym again at lunchtime, and the rarely resident PT was in. He's the guy who showed me the ropes when I first joined. He said I looked great and seemed genuinely impressed - I even saw the double take! Of course after that I tried even harder on the treadmill, and was slightly concerned that my head might not fit back through the gym entrance. It feels like a bigger deal when the compliment is from a "health professional" - and the fact that he is easy on the eye himself was a bonus too.

Oh, I sneaked a peek at the scales this morning - but you'll have to wait for tomorrow for the "official" verdict. (That's if I remember to weigh myself)

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Few More Hours Please....

I'm in stress mode. Got lots and lots of things I want to get done, and I am trying to fit everything in by yesterday. I got lists everywhere, I'm skint, I'm tired. Apart from that I'm wonderful! :)

Hanging on to the program and apart from the half square of chocolate I found myself scoffing last night been very good. I have been on the treadmill 3 times this week. Even managed to run for 3 minutes straight. Watch out Kathy Freeman - I'm right behind ya!

Getting tough tho..... It's the stress that makes me wanna eat...... Anyone got a few spare hours they can lend me?

Monday, July 17, 2006

Going Down

I'm bouncing around all over the place at the moment. Gained 3 kgs on my 10 day binge, and lost 2.8kg as of Saturday morning. So I'm back to where I started.

Have to try and keep the decline for a bit longer. Some b##tard brought Krispy Kremes in for morning tea but I am to resist... reseeest!!!!

I did have pasta Saturday night, but checked the scales this morning and no real harm done, so looking forward to seeing a loss on Friday. PLEASE!

Seems that life at the moment is throwing in any obstacle it can think of.... but gotta stay focussed. Kinda feels like an episode of smallville (no I don't watch it - the trailers are enough to put me off!) where do you get those lycra suits from?

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Catch My Disease

Everyone's doing it! It's like a craze that's sweeping the nation. Mum is doing it - and seems to be going very well. My sisters mother in law is doing it, although I don't really know why, cause she doesn't really need to. One of mom's work mates is considering it, and ones of my mates is doing it as well (although she's got no chance cause she's not committed)

Oh, and in case u haven't already guessed - I'm talking about TF. Good luck to them all I say. I'm especially proud of my mum. She has never been a water drinker - hates the stuff. She is however making sure she has her 2 litres, and is finding it easier every day. Good on ya! If ever I needed inspiration - you're it!

On a separate note, here's a blog I came across yesterday. Thought the pirate dictionary pretty good fun. Find it interesting that the term bitch is becoming more of a compliment rather than an insult, meaning a strong woman, one who will not suffer fools gladly. Call me a bitch anytime!
http://thebookbitches.blogspot.com

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

More Money Than Sense

That is my answer to the question - what kind of people vote on Big Brother. BB06 this year is boring. Yawning boring. So much so I put the late show on when I have insomnia.

They finally put someone interesting in - Perry. Loud, opinionated, loud, outrageous, slightly dizzy, loud, confident, abrupt - did I mention loud? She was pushing all the right buttons, getting reactions from the sloths, made something worth watching. So what happens? First week she is up for eviction the "public" vote her off! Hence it's boring again. I mean jeez guys - think before you sms. Sure she was annoying, loud, mental - but at least she was doing something. You don't have to live with her - so keep her in to stir the pot! Why not vote the plastic fantastic Crystal instead - the only thing worth watching out for with her is how high she can get her hair on a Sunday night.

Vote with your head, not your heart - keep the annoying people in for some interest - arguments, debates, fights - that's what we want to see - not lounging sun catchers who whinge about their white bits.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Focus

Had a very low few days. Bad news on Saturday night and feels like everything is falling down around my ears. Been avoiding this area as wanted to keep it positive and didn't have anything even remotely amusing or interesting to say. Still haven't.

My mantra for the week... FOCUS. Stay positive. Keep looking forward. Keep your eyes on the goal.

Started the TF programme again. Put on a few kilos but going to treat this as a new start. Food is nourishment again instead of comfort. Went on treadmill yesterday and worked pretty hard. So far planning on doing same today.

Lots of decisions to make - every one feels like a bad one. How do you sort through which is the best?

FOCUS.

Friday, July 07, 2006

HXB RIP

I cremated a Hot Cross Bun last night. I know it's not Easter but that is when I started this diet (crusade?) and as HXBs are my absolute favourite I hid them in my freezer for very special occasions.

Well I was hungry last night so that was my special occasion. Stuck one under the grill and went on the computer....... and forgot about it. Think it was about an hour later before I realised. Of course it was black and unedible (lovely charcoal for the BBQ tho) Believe me that's not the first time I have done that.

Karma? maybe. Stupidity? Definitely!

Oh, and I've just had my first Caffeine fix in 3 months. Will be bouncing off the walls any minute now.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Feel like a Pubic Hair on a Toilet Seat

I'm pissed off. I hate being "overweight" (at least I'm not classed as obese anymore) I hate having a cold. I feel like I have a space suit on (just don't fart!) I'm the girl in the bubble. My ears feel blocked, I feel like I am about to sneeze all the time. (people think I'm pulling faces at them - it's just my nose itching). I keep wrinkling it like on Bewitched. (my spells aren't working tho - doh!). I'm grumpy, I'm emotional. Can't even blame it on the time of the month. What other excuse can I use.... SAD syndrome is always effective this time of year :)

Thanks to Life for his comment. The site he mentions is cool too. Looking forward to my motivational thoughts for the day - definitely need a buck up.

Here's one I have been meaning to post up for a while. Definitely brought a smile to my face. A little harmless voyeurism. I'm not sure whether Aussies know who Paul Daniels is - but he's a "famous", now infamous, magician. Very "uncool". Aussies think Daryl Somers with a "find the ball under the cup" game and you get the picture. Those in the States, think David Copperfield starring on a cheesy game show and you might come close. Lemme know what you think. http://www.pdet.blogspot.com/
- check out feb 18 especially - I'm guessing he's in his 60s now???

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Lost - 1 Motivation. If found please return.

I caved. Made it to 5:30pm but I caved. Bought bake at home dinner rolls and fruit steamed puddings. Had 4 of the rolls with REAL butter and Deli cheese, then later had a steamed pudding with a huge dollop of my childhood favourite - tinned cream. Hmmmmmmm.

I have lost my mojo, my motivation, my willpower. I am bored of the shakes. I am bored of my job, I am bored of my life. Decided I will have a week off to pick up the pieces and hopefully my strength will have returned to be able to pick up the baton again and keep on running.

Good news. I made 30 pairs of earrings last night and managed to fulfill my order on time. phew! I need an extra 5 hours every day to catch up on all the things I plan to do. I spend all day at my "real" job wishing I was home so I could get on with my own business, then when I get home I am so stuffed I cannot be bothered looking at a computer for another few hours (surely 8 hours a day is enough!)

ah well. Did some random blogging before to cheer myself up (or kill time - whichever you prefer) this one caught my eye http://lifesinger.blogspot.com/ Enjoy.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Low Down on My Low

Had a day & 1/2 off the diet on the weekend. Didn't even enjoy it yesterday. Saturday was ok - had some leftover noodles lunchtime (greasy) and took the boys for fish and chips teatime. Overate. Was yummy though.

Yesterday was a different story, and I feel ashamed and disgusted with myself. I was basically grumpy. Mostly because I was all blocked up with a head cold, but also because t/l didn't stay over like he promised. C. was driving me insane. His incessant talking, whilst normally annoying but bearable, was grating - like a drill boring into my head. Porridge for brekkie. That was yum. Then ate the leftover pineapple fritters - and I went downhill from there. BBQ chips, mini mars bars - I was rummaging in the pantry like a hobo rifling through garbage bags.

C wanted maccas for lunch. I decided on a decaf coffee that made my nauseous, and a big mac and fries. Can't believe I used to eat them. Fries were like eating soggy warm cardboard, and the burger - well, let's just say I won't be eating there again. Obviously my head cold was causing me to make bad eating decisions. Codral don't have a cure for that one do they?

Suppose the good news is my "comfort" eating isn't so comforting any more. I'm still grumpy, still all blocked up - but now with crappy junk food as well as the head cold. Back to the drawing board.